I must speak of Adam Zuniga as a role model by all the times I've mentioned him in my blogs. Or at least some sort of hero. Is it possible that I'm giving off the wrong vibe to my viewers? My readers? I don't adore him in such a way that would make me question my sexuality, just to be clear. But I have realized that a lot of the time I make references to him that might suggest otherwise. Let's get this straight (heh, no pun intended) and out (geez!) in the open: the reason I refer back to him is because since Chico, no one has ever said anything to me that made me realize I don't have to be depressed.
For those of you who don't know me, Chico isn't the best person to receive advice from. He's a chauvinistic man who's sole joke is "I used to have a dishwasher, but the bitch ran away." But one time, I was having a moment, a odd depression had set in. He took me by the shoulder and said, "Stop it. You don't have anything to be depressed about. So get over and live life."
Harsh, words, I know, but the truth is, I don't have anything to be depressed about but still wake up some mornings wishing that I'd expire.
But Adam, and now I'm jumping back to my original subject in order to push my actual subject, told me, in an interview:
I didn't know what to answer, even though I was the one who was supposed to be doing the interview. Unlike most journalist--which I don't consider myself--I allow my subjects to talk and talk about things while I record it. That's the first interview. The second, we might have a conversation, I might ask a few questions that'll lead me to where I want to get. I run the risk of never being taken serious in the Freedom Communications' inner beast.
Adam knows the key to immortality, and that's to get his words, voice, ideas, out there in the world. That way he can live on forever in the fight to legalize and allow a person the right to choose. I mentioned to him the old Chinese thought of immortality.
And that is what I'm now setting out to do. I have been reading religious books since I discovered other options. Wicca is what I'm focusing on now. Before you jump into conclusions, I'm not hip for all that magic junk, however, I do like some of their thoughts and ideas. Next, I'm jumping into Judeo-Christianity, then Islam, then Buddhism, etc. I will dissect each religion, find the things that make sense and make a manifesto of all the ideas that I agree with. This will then be my way of life and I may share it with others, but I don't expect others to understand or respect it.
Am I willing to try cannabis as a sacrament? Possibly not. I've traveled that path in th past, not as sacrament, but still a user. And while I'm not saying Adam is a user, I feel that I may fall back into old ways. Will I allow it in my beliefs? Only if it allows the person who follows it a more clear passage of life. I won't be a religion, per se, but it will be a series of thoughts. For a better life.
Perhaps I have become mad. Perhaps my depression has poisoned me to believe that I can change the world. If I can, then I will. If I want to, then I'll try. But for the moment, it is only for me to know and report to you.
For those of you who don't know me, Chico isn't the best person to receive advice from. He's a chauvinistic man who's sole joke is "I used to have a dishwasher, but the bitch ran away." But one time, I was having a moment, a odd depression had set in. He took me by the shoulder and said, "Stop it. You don't have anything to be depressed about. So get over and live life."
Harsh, words, I know, but the truth is, I don't have anything to be depressed about but still wake up some mornings wishing that I'd expire.
But Adam, and now I'm jumping back to my original subject in order to push my actual subject, told me, in an interview:
"Plant life, I wouldn't debate it, because if you take responsibility of planting the plant, nourishing it, watching it grow, then fulfilling its destiny and that is the heal someone, that's the whole purpose. Maybe that will help you realize what your destiny is on this planet. What is your purpose? Is it to write an article and help people get their message out? Is it to use some sort of herbal remedy? "
I didn't know what to answer, even though I was the one who was supposed to be doing the interview. Unlike most journalist--which I don't consider myself--I allow my subjects to talk and talk about things while I record it. That's the first interview. The second, we might have a conversation, I might ask a few questions that'll lead me to where I want to get. I run the risk of never being taken serious in the Freedom Communications' inner beast.
Adam knows the key to immortality, and that's to get his words, voice, ideas, out there in the world. That way he can live on forever in the fight to legalize and allow a person the right to choose. I mentioned to him the old Chinese thought of immortality.
- Plant a tree
- have a child
- write a book
"And I understand all three, and I accept all three. Now do I agree with killing female infants? No. But that's their culture. But at a time, you know, I'm coming from a belief of reincarnation. Maybe at a time I was against that. In this life, I'm not. Because I realized something and Terence McKenna, if you're familiar with him, if not, then I highly recommend him. He did a lot of studying of shamanism, hoasca and mushrooms. He says that culture and ideology are not your friends. He says to build your own wage, which is what I've done because of his lecture. Create your own creation myth. Create something that works best for you. And I want to help people do is find that."
And that is what I'm now setting out to do. I have been reading religious books since I discovered other options. Wicca is what I'm focusing on now. Before you jump into conclusions, I'm not hip for all that magic junk, however, I do like some of their thoughts and ideas. Next, I'm jumping into Judeo-Christianity, then Islam, then Buddhism, etc. I will dissect each religion, find the things that make sense and make a manifesto of all the ideas that I agree with. This will then be my way of life and I may share it with others, but I don't expect others to understand or respect it.
Am I willing to try cannabis as a sacrament? Possibly not. I've traveled that path in th past, not as sacrament, but still a user. And while I'm not saying Adam is a user, I feel that I may fall back into old ways. Will I allow it in my beliefs? Only if it allows the person who follows it a more clear passage of life. I won't be a religion, per se, but it will be a series of thoughts. For a better life.
Perhaps I have become mad. Perhaps my depression has poisoned me to believe that I can change the world. If I can, then I will. If I want to, then I'll try. But for the moment, it is only for me to know and report to you.
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