Lois Hope Walker writes:
I have never been on to disagree that religion works for some to be happy. I know a girl, Charity, whom I adore (not in the sense that you're thinking) because she's able to wake up everyday and find that there is a reason in this world. She's allowed herself to have such wonderful thoughts. But religion isn't for all of us. It certainly not for me.
Most people say my depression is due to my lack of religion. Truth is, I've always been this way. Since I was a kid, when I had great faith, I'd walk around in this coma state, just watching the other boys enjoying sports. Me, I just sat there, under a tree and accepted the fact that I wasn't like them.
I think I have no faith and doubt the existence of god solely because I'm this way and not vice versa.
On Ennui Prayer, I had a man named Russ quote a passage of the Bible, referring to my Buddhist Existential quote from A Buddhist Bible:
I love my life, even though at times I hate the emotions experienced on a day to day basis. What is it about me that I wake up feeling useless and sad. Is there a reason? Perhaps if I allowed "Jesus" to help me out, then I'd get a hold of things. But I don't work that way.
I believe religion is a poison upon our society. Now don't misconstrue this as me being an anti-christ. I don't care if you believe in God or Buddha, or Allah, or L. Ron Hubbard's bullshit Religion. But I do persuade people to ask themselves why they are a part of their church. Is it solely because they were raise that way?
That was my reason and being Catholic wasn't helping me much. I've lost my main reason. Somewhere in the clutter of random thoughts, but that's why this a blog for personal chronicle rather than being noticed for my writing skills.
I guess what I wanted to say is, religion doesn't work for everyone. Those of us with thoughts have this problem of doubting. Religion is just the metaphysical sugar pill that we pop in our mouths to rid us of the temptation of being human.
Man, I wish I could believe.
"God loves and cares for us. His love compels us, so that we have a deeper motive for morally good actions, including high altruism. We live deeply moral lives, not out of fear of hell, but out of deep gratitude to One who loves us and whom we love. We live not by impersonal rules but in relation with a Cosmic Lover, one who has out best interests in mind and is powerful enough to ensure that we are as happy as we are good.
"Secularism lacks this sense of cosmic love, and it is, therefore, no accident that it fails to produce moral saints like Jesus..."
I have never been on to disagree that religion works for some to be happy. I know a girl, Charity, whom I adore (not in the sense that you're thinking) because she's able to wake up everyday and find that there is a reason in this world. She's allowed herself to have such wonderful thoughts. But religion isn't for all of us. It certainly not for me.
Most people say my depression is due to my lack of religion. Truth is, I've always been this way. Since I was a kid, when I had great faith, I'd walk around in this coma state, just watching the other boys enjoying sports. Me, I just sat there, under a tree and accepted the fact that I wasn't like them.
I think I have no faith and doubt the existence of god solely because I'm this way and not vice versa.
On Ennui Prayer, I had a man named Russ quote a passage of the Bible, referring to my Buddhist Existential quote from A Buddhist Bible:
"...every one must bear the burden of his own sins, that every man must be the fabricator of his own salvation, that not even God can do for man what self-help in the form of self-conquest and self-emancipation can accomplish." (3-4)The quote above really didn't have much to do with the topic of the blog. For the most part, I was trying to address "90 Day Jane" and her stupidity for stating that as an atheist, she didn't see much reason to live for. Suicide and I have never been good friends. The thoughts have surfaced every once in a while, but nothing so serious that I'd actually consider taking my life.
I love my life, even though at times I hate the emotions experienced on a day to day basis. What is it about me that I wake up feeling useless and sad. Is there a reason? Perhaps if I allowed "Jesus" to help me out, then I'd get a hold of things. But I don't work that way.
I believe religion is a poison upon our society. Now don't misconstrue this as me being an anti-christ. I don't care if you believe in God or Buddha, or Allah, or L. Ron Hubbard's bullshit Religion. But I do persuade people to ask themselves why they are a part of their church. Is it solely because they were raise that way?
That was my reason and being Catholic wasn't helping me much. I've lost my main reason. Somewhere in the clutter of random thoughts, but that's why this a blog for personal chronicle rather than being noticed for my writing skills.
I guess what I wanted to say is, religion doesn't work for everyone. Those of us with thoughts have this problem of doubting. Religion is just the metaphysical sugar pill that we pop in our mouths to rid us of the temptation of being human.
Man, I wish I could believe.
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